The Order of Willingness

“Blind as we are, we hinder God, and stop the current of His graces. But when He finds a soul penetrated with a lively faith, He pours into it His graces and favors plentifully.”  Brother Lawrence

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In my previous post, God’s Work & My Work, I discussed those instantaneous changes in my life that God simply gifted upon me that early morning in January.  For me, they were miraculous and transforming; a new state of being that was foreign, fascinating and salvific.  To this day I find myself constantly reflecting on what I have referred to as the surrealism of my continuing path in life.  Reality in my adult life was one of the physical.  There was no spirituality within because I had been methodically walked – by my family experience and society’s push to relativism and enlightenment – to the belief that things not seen are things not in existence.

Now do not misinterpret what I say here.  While as a child I was subject to the family experience without the capability to discern and affect that experience until of sufficient age, and then it was clearly too late, I was not a victim to society at all.  I actively sought out the desires I found within me; taking them on as rights of being.  As one learns, one acts; for good and evil.  In the physical world, one only cooperates as long as it contributes to one’s needs.  The world is very competitive, unforgiving, and seemingly indifferent to suffering.  The world produces fear which produces sin.  God creates things, and all things are good.  Man creates choice and action, and in those choices and actions resides sin and evil.  No, I earned my way into sin; one lust, one excess, one abuse, one indifference, one unloving act at a time. Continue reading The Order of Willingness